No matter what you did
No matter the mindset you have right NOW
You are getting better
Well… if you want to get well that is…
Your mind is changing, and the way you think is growing in a direction that is positive and full of life. These are the things I want for you.
I want you to know that you have what it takes (No matter how many times you fail). I want you to know that you are beautiful (even if you feel weird about that sentence). I want you to know you are on a journey (enjoy the process). I want you to know you have great friends (even if they don’t do what you expect of them all the time, because your expectations are audacious and they don’t know you expect that of them…). I want you to know however many steps backwards you take, at least you are trying to move forward (though the backward steps suck). Trevor you are a work in progress, there is more time in this life, and it doesn’t all have to change right now, right away.
You once lived in an identity full of guilt, shame, and fear. But, like the universe, you are constantly growing and expanding. The universe has never been the same, ever. We can’t go back, and growing takes time, but time moves forward. And so there is a new identity to believe in. The truth is it’s impossible to continue to live in who you were, or once were. You will always be more than you once were. You will, and you are expanding, learning, changing, and it is good. The guilt you lived in comes and goes. It waxes and wanes. Some moments of guilt are ok when they lead to a change towards good, but you can’t live life in guilt. You are not the guilty one. And the God of this Universe sees you as a beloved Son of the Father. Your shame doesn’t define you. As much as you once sat in your shame, you can’t sit there anymore. Why? Because it’s gone. You can’t sit in something that doesn’t exist. So, keep taking one step. I believe fear will always be in your life, but it will change. Right now your fear is different from where you will be in a few years, but fear can be good. Fear can drive you to the feet of Jesus. Fear can be an outcome of the faith you have, and the logic that resides in you, but faith will win. It can’t fail. The fear of the Lord brings wisdom.
So this leaves you with only one option. Live out of your new identity. You are different today. You are different than a month ago. You are far greater then you were two years ago. Live in this new understanding and truth. You’ve grown, you’ve fought, you’ve learned, and this is a good identity.
I’m not sure why we live as new wine in old wine skins? I’m not sure why we like to maintain, go back, or return to the old way of life? But remembering who you are NOW will greatly change your outlook. Life is waiting for you to take a step as your new self. Resurrect today. Be new today. Be who you are now, not the old self, but the new self. And every day there is a new self yet to be!
Take heart for you have come a long way.
Take soul for you have what it takes.
Take mind of where you want to go, and know you are doing a good job.