(I wish that would have made a sweet acronym). I talk about full life a lot. More than most other words. I’ve had a few conversations lately about full life. They go like this.
Friend:”I messed up man”
Me:”I forgive you”
F:”no man, I failed”
Me:”I forgive you”
F:”thanks but I feel empty, lonely, and I have all these desires that keep being un met. I don’t believe God is good”
Me:”me too most days”
I am not sure we understand the idea of full life. Or fullness of life. Jesus says full life is in him. He says if we seek first his kingdom we will have all things. Both of which I do not believe.
I hated watching tv shows that kept you in suspense. “Tune in next week” or, “when we come back from comercial…” It’s amazingly aggravating. I’ll use the word hate. I hate it. The waiting is painful, but it is a part of the show. Isn’t it?
When I dream of full life I dream about nothing broken and nothing missing. It’s the definition of shalom. It’s a cool Hebrew word. I feel smart talking about it. But it’s beautiful. Nothing broken. Nothing missing. Nothing.
I have a lie I believe how full life means perfect or without pain. And I think this is what screws up my mind. I’ve had a lot of experiences in my life that leave me empty. They suck, but could these feelings be part of life? Can they be beautiful? You can’t leave a feeling like emptiness or lonely out of the definition of full life, can you? I believe Jesus meant that. Full life encompasses all and we can’t leave anything out. Nothing missing.
Full life: love, grace, peace, justice, mercy, beauty, food, laughter, adventure, friends, family, and…..
Pain, suffering, lessons, obedience, patience, quiet, loss, grieving, trials, hurt, tears.
It is all in the fullness. We can’t live hoping full life is only good. We don’t get to choose what we feel, but we do get to choose how we react. Can we rely on Jesus to comfort, and show us where they fit in the realm of fullness? How can we take a step towards full life today? We do not need to run away from pain, but give pain it’s place in the shalom of life.
Can we draw close enough to Jesus in order to weather these storms? Can we give hard emotions and emptiness their place in full life? We don’t have to like it, or run from it, but take it and see where it falls in life as a whole?
May we be complete today, lacking nothing. Even if it means having emptiness? May we strive for shalom and accept all of life.