Life is hard.
Doing life right is painful. It will not be easy, and you are going to make mistakes. Big mistakes that hurt others. You can’t please everyone. You are going to want to run away, hide, take an easy route and lay down. You are going to have days you don’t want to get out of bed. You are going to have days where you wish you could take it all back. You will have more words come out of your mouth you wish never had than you have words you like come out. You are going to grow, but that also comes with pain. You are going to be stretched, but it will sting. You are going to be kicked, bruised, put down, looked over, overwhelmed, shamed, tempted, tried, treated like sh*t, but you know what?
As much as you don’t believe it
As much as you don’t want to hear it
As much as you believe the lies that go on in your head. You are not those lies. You are not those harsh words, and you need to start believing truth.
Life is worth it.
Doing life right is worth more than you will ever fully understand. Don’t settle. Do not run away, and do not go hide. Getting out of bed will be worth it. And make sure you enjoy it. Enjoy hard conversations and do not take them for granted. Enjoy those God has given you. Enjoy movies, laughter, eating, cards, and most of all, be grateful. For you only have today. For you have always only had today. And more importantly I need you to believe one strong truth.
You are not your mistakes. You are good. No matter what you believe, no matter what others may think, act, or say, you are good. Jesus is proud of you. Not because of anything you have done or not done, but simply because you are alive and He made you. He designed you to be the way you are, and do you understand how Jesus doesn’t make mistakes? He doesn’t create what He does not love. As much as you don’t understand Love. As much as Love has always had strings attached and you feel as you need to earn others love, Jesus doesn’t care. You cannot earn His love. He is going to Love you beyond any love that you could afford to give back. He is going to watch you fall, break, and be there to pick you up. He is going to comfort you when you don’t want His comfort. Jesus is going to fill you with His Love even when you do not believe you deserve or ever will be able to accept it. Whether or not you make the right moves, impress the right people, say the right words or not, Jesus is fond of you. Trevor, this truth is bigger than you will ever know. This truth transcends all knowledge. It breaks truth open and brings with it joy and peace. You have been made right. All things have been put together, for you, and on your behalf. Do you know that? Do you believe it? Life is hard, but it is worth it. Following Jesus is greater than anything else you may want or desire. Being filled by Jesus is more full of life then you will realize. Seek Him, for He is seeking you. Listen to Him, He listens to you. Try and accept His Love, there is no love greater, no love wider, no love deeper, and you will find you have always known it was what you were looking for.
I love you