Do you believe what you see, or do you see what you already believe?
I had a really bad day yesterday, but I am not sure if it was actually a bad day, or did I already believe it was a bad day so all I saw were bad things? Maybe I already had it in my head that it was going to be a bad day. So, as things added up they seemed to be bad. Things kept turning out to be against me. Things kept falling apart. And then there was a moment of wonder, of maybe this is all simply how I am choosing to see it.
I was at a Younglife camp the other day doing program. I was with a friend running from the dining hall towards club because we were going back on stage in four minutes. I barely had enough time to think, let alone stop and look at something. But my friend pointed towards the ground and said check it out. We stopped, I looked at him and asked what? Check out what? And he pointed to the ground where the lights from camp made color and designs you wouldn’t believe. The lights from the building had collided with the water from the rain and made a myriad of prisms and Van Gogh like swirls.
All weekend I was focused on the tasks at hand. The next club, the next game, the next event, and I missed so many beautiful moments. My attention was on the “important” things. When all around me were pieces of heaven. All around me were conversations with angels. All around me was the essence of Jesus. If only I had time and the mindset to see it. After that moment I decided to stop believing I was stressed and busy, and started to see all the abundance around me.
What happens when you focus on everyone around you getting engaged and or married? What happens when you see everyone around you buying new clothes or getting new cars? What happens when you focus on everyone’s exaggerated bragging posts on social media? About the trips their on, the meals their eating, and the parties they go to? What happens when you focus on everyone else’s green gr ass?
I’ll tell you what happens.
You murder all the good in your life right now. You destroy the people in front of you. You mistake those closest to you as hindrances instead of joy. You start to only focus on what you do not have, and depreciate what you do. You may even start to think God doesn’t care. Maybe He isn’t listening? Maybe He is a jerk because He is giving everyone else the very thing you want?
I’m starting to live my life and my life is full. My life has great people in it. My life is being lived out on my timeline that God has for me. It might not add up to others. It may not look like others. It may not be as glamourous or the way I believe it should be going, but it is my life. My life goes to the gym when I don’t want to. My life is full of incredible conversations, incredible opportunities, and it is mine. Where I choose to focus is where my heart and joy will be.
What if we saw the truth? What if we tried to see what is really happening, and not what we believe to be happening? How different would today be if you lived in appreciation and not in believing we deserve different?
Jesus states that this world is yours and everything in it. Everything in it is yours. Everything. Fullness is at hand for you today. I think it lays hidden in gratitude. It waits dormant in us. May my identity be defined by gratitude. May my life be full of appreciation and dedicated to seeing what I have as enough. Maybe things are not as they seem? Maybe there is something good out of a bad day? Maybe what we think should be or should happen isn’t what is best for us after all?